Just why

Monday I attended the Capitol Confrence Choral Clinic, otherwise known as CCCC. We learned the music in advance, and then when we showed up, we were given a half hour with the director to work on our choir's feature song, and then we had a whole afternoon of rehursals. My voice was completely ripped to shreds; I honestly felt like I had just swallowed needles. After a whole day of yelling, singing, more singing. and singing really loud, I was surprised that I had enough of a voice to sing in the concert that night.

It was durring the last rehursal session that I realized why I would never be able to be any sort of music teacher. Despite my passion for it, I get so impatient with people who don't have the same intensified passion. As I watched other choirs do their feature songs, I could almost see the dissappointment on some of the directors' faces as they tried all they could to get their choir to find that passion.

During the mass choir rehursal session, I decided to surround myself with people that weren't from my school, so that I could branch out a little bit. (If you were to watch the video you would see clumps of green, red, black, and blue, but you would also see a little green dot in the middle of a blue/red clump... that dot was me. As the rehursal continued I found myself wanting to scream at the people around me. Why wouldn't you fix the note you have messed up 5 consecutive times? Why wouldn't you want to make good facial expressions? Why wouldn't you listen to the director intently? Why wouldn't you show some sort of stage pressence? Why wouldn't you give 110% to this? It annoys me so much when people slack off on things like this. This is why I could never teach music, for fear that I might hate my job because my students don't care. For fear that I might not be able to get my students interested in the music. For fear that I might be ruining the musical expirience for some of my students. I honestly would not be able to wake up every morning and go to a job that I fear. I have been fortunate enough  to not have a music teacher who hates his/her job. All of my music teachers have been passionately involved in it, and I appreciate them.